"The height of your accomplishments is determined
by the depth of your convictions."
by the depth of your convictions."
— William F. Scolavino: Adventurer & Photographer
So now I have high sites for my accomplishments and I have the lowest depth of ability to work, ever.
Why am I so tired? So lazy? So distracted? My head says conviction but my actions speak otherwise. And, this is not today or yesterday. This has gone on for 2 years now, ever since the cancer treatments ended.
I am going for help, again, today with this problem of, what I call, laziness. This is not the first time I have had to go for help for this but I do hope that it can change me. I have been helped by this person before but never for this particular problem. In fact, he failed to help me last recent time I went. Or, maybe I failed to recover from the laziness when I saw him. Either way, it was a failure and I am frozen in space and time.
However, my inner voice says I cannot give up. For that, at least, I am showing conviction. In faith.
The next week is a test of trying to use mindfulness each day to overcome my problem.
Day I - 6 pm and no luck thus far.
Day 2 - 9 pm and no luck thus far. It was a very rough couple of days with central issues. Tomorrow I am free of this problem and perhaps a change will occur.
Day 3 - no luck
Day 4 - no luck
Day 5 - this is not working
Day 6 - no luck
Day 7 - tba
However, my inner voice says I cannot give up. For that, at least, I am showing conviction. In faith.
The next week is a test of trying to use mindfulness each day to overcome my problem.
Day I - 6 pm and no luck thus far.
Day 2 - 9 pm and no luck thus far. It was a very rough couple of days with central issues. Tomorrow I am free of this problem and perhaps a change will occur.
Day 3 - no luck
Day 4 - no luck
Day 5 - this is not working
Day 6 - no luck
Day 7 - tba
