Next week I return to work full time. Only today have I started to feel well again. My toenails are still falling off and I have some brain fog left. It's now 7.5 months of leave but 12 months of treatments. I'm a completely different person than I was 12 months ago. My skin, my body, my hair, my life . . . all changed. I'm actually scared to return to work. I don't know how to do it. Most of the time I have been completely out of it during this cancer treatment so being normal when I am completely changed is going to be a new start. What to expect?
- Some will be angry that I was away. They might think I was on "holidays" since some see sick leave as a break. Yeah, the break no one wants, I say!
- Some will still think I'm sick and avoid me.
- Others will look forward to loading me back up with work.
The unknown is scary. What I do know is that I cannot get into the stress cycle I was in before. I know I had a break down and just kept working. Never again.
Now I must plan my future. Plan my now.
- Some will be angry that I was away. They might think I was on "holidays" since some see sick leave as a break. Yeah, the break no one wants, I say!
- Some will still think I'm sick and avoid me.
- Others will look forward to loading me back up with work.
The unknown is scary. What I do know is that I cannot get into the stress cycle I was in before. I know I had a break down and just kept working. Never again.
Now I must plan my future. Plan my now.
