I was reading some old notes today. They were from my journal written 10 years ago, at the time when I made some very significant, positive shifts in my life. Two years after that, I became stuck and I was not sure why until I found this note. I reminded myself that I've been planning my life ever since my Mother passed away. I need to move ahead with my life and stop planning. Just go for the plan and do it. I think that Mom would have wanted that. I cannot be continually living these plans. I must change.
It was surprising, and self revealing to note that my pattern of planning and acting was shaken up by the death of my Mother. I had been caring for my mother for about a decade and when she passed away, I lost part of my purpose in life. During that time, most of my plans involved making plans for myself along with compensating for how this would fit into my care-taking role of Mom. Without that anchor and a motivational anchor at that, I was stuck in planning. I no longer had a barrier. I had free rein. It was too much. I had nothing to ground me. My home began to reflect it as well; as I horded memorabilia.
Now, as of reading this old entry, I realize that I have to create a ground or anchor for my plans and then just made the decision to stop planning along the way and just follow through with the plans.
I had not thought about a need for anchoring my plans or setting down an anchor to make plans "real" until I realized that plans are not just for the open sea (at least with my personality) of life but need to be anchored so we can change to plan B, if needed. As well, the anchor provides stability in case a plan does not work out as expected -- at least we're still anchored and therefore secure.
So, plan, pull up what anchors you to the old life, and execute your plan (stop planning) today. You'll feel better for it all, whether plans work out perfectly or not, you will know ten years from now that you tried.
Good luck to you!
